Confrontation

You know what i hate....confrontation. in any way shape or form. hate it. don't do well with it. get so worked up and nervous and it just stresses me out.

just today (like five minutes ago) I had to deal with a form of confrontation dealing with a nanny job that i was going to take (like i started it today. went up to learn the schedule etc). i had JUST left the house when my mom called me in a panic and said that her daycare (the daycare she has used for the past 3 years) gave notice today. she got a full time job. can't watch my 3 and 4 year old brother and sister anymore. which leaves my mom in a bind. a bind that i can help her with. and want to help her with because well....she's my mom...duh. and they are my family.

so i had to call the said nanny job and tell them that something came up and that i actually can't nanny for them like i had planned. i feel HORRIBLE. not only did i wake the poor woman up from her sleep. i dumped this news on her. she said she needed to gather her thoughts and call me back.

she called back and we talked and i said i could still help out here and there, which i can. but ugh. i just feel awful.

i hate confrontation.